Found these pics and thought they were fantastic. For all the women out there - you KNOW you're sexy!!!

I'm officially over it. The novelty was worn off and has retreated with its tail between its legs and I doubt will return for a few good years yet. I'm talking about babies. My cousins have been here for a few days now and while their son is adorable - he is the devil in disguise. The kid is insatiable - banging everything, opening things he shouldn't and yesterday he went that one step too far. He was banging on our sofa with a small cricket bat, and somehow he managed to sidle up to our tv and proceeded to give it a whack. I had turned my back for a second to pick up some toys and when I heard the sound, I swung around and it was like slow motion watching as my bro dived and wrenched him away from it. Let me mention here that our tv is my parent's pride and joy. My mother after suffering so many years on a "tiny"(normal) screen, finally persuaded my father to upgrade. Which is why we ended up with a monstrosity of a tv - it's huge. So, Lucky, as the baby is called was rather unlucky, left two big cracks in the screen. Needless to say my parents weren't very happy - but what can we do, he's only a baby....

Hmm, days are going by quite peacefully, just working and relaxing....been sleeping in pretty much everyday, much to my dad's disapproval. He's one of those freakishly early morning people. Need to go get my ring resized before Evs gets back - lol, he says he wants to see me actually wearing it "properly". It's been in its box because I'm afraid I'll lose it otherwise. I like expensive jewellery but then I'm too afraid to wear it coz I KNOW myself and how I am with things. I have many earrings that will never be reunited with their other half....

The forum has been heating up a bit - MUIC one, not Monash so much, things are being said and accusations flying around, and while I have no clue what the real matter is, piece by piece I'm beginning to see the picture. My take on it is, is that it's not actually anyone's business but for the people involved, but I guess in a curry community gossip goes hand in hand with popularity.

Went to the gym on Monday, and have only just recovered - this is what happens when I try to do weights after six months. My biceps were bulging nicely and I could see the tone in my triceps, and it was all ok for the first day but then yesterday it hit - the painnnnnnnn.....ow ow and OW. I couldn't straighten my hands that's how bad it was. My sister, the budding physio, said I had DOMS...lol...whatever that means...Today it's a lot better, so I think I'm game enough to go again later today. Hehe - if you don't hear from me, it'll be because I have lost all feeling for the next few days again.... LOL


- Silvara

Heya peoples!! It's taking some getting used to, but I'm on holidays!!!! My exams finished on Friday and you have no idea how happy I was to see the last of them. I have been recovering from my post-exam partying, and I don't think I'll be getting out of bed anytime soon...Need sleeeeeeeep......

I think I went pretty well - Java was screwy as usual (you have to see the subject's forum to understand how fucked up this exam was) and Database.....hmm...I spent so much time on Java and let's just not go there, shall we?? :P


After our last exam, Ange and I went to her bf's workplace to meet him and his best friend Michael, just to grab a well-deserved coffee and just relax and of course go thru the post-exam ripping of the paper and our usual bitching session about other Angie. Apparenlty, the other Ange was flying to Europe the next day to spend a few weeks with some guy she met at the F1, and now is in love with her. Of course they're not sleeping together. LOL. The place where ange's bf works, I found out, is right next door to where Yogi works, so I was very tempted to go and say hello, but she would have probably knocked off by then anyways. It's very nice inside, a kinda contemporary decor and lots of low lights and plasma sets.

There was this one waitress that was pissing Ange off coz as soon as we finished our drinks, she came and swept them away, and then came every so often to wipe the table down. I think she thought Michael was cute heheh. Lol - Ange had a few choice words for her, and Michael and I just looked at each other and rolled our eyes. Then he was eyeing a few girls that had come for their evening pre-drinks, and then Ange and I rolled our eyes at his choice of "hot". My eyeballs were sore by the time we left lol. They had just started showing the re-run of the Australia-Croatia game at 5, so it got packed pretty quickly. I had to leave to get to the venue of Sam's 21st soon after, and since Ange was stuck at home that night babysitting while her mum went out, she offered to drop me there.

Got there bout 6:15ish and Mani and Sam were running late (trust), so we decided to see if we could get the projector working and check out the bar. Hehe - kinda got busted when the manager came up and I was just about to go and have a look if the taps were working...I wasn't going to touch anything. Honest :P. Mani and Sam finally arrived, and then I rushed off to get changed - by this time Ange had decided to leave - she leaves for Greece for a few weeks on Saturday so we promised to meet up during the week for coffee.

The whole night went well - as much as I remember of it lol - I think I declared my love for Sam in the speeches and let out his biggest secret from when he was 13 (Mani scratched him -don't ask), and danced away on the dance floor. There were a few technical difficulties - technology hates me and this is me being an IS student - so we got Mani to distract the guests - hehe...no stripteasing - just more funny anecdotes of Sam - like when he waxed his legs at his then gf's house , his numerous "gay" stories....Not everyone turned up, I think a lot of people were at the boat cruise (I wanted to go - but priorities) and/or other events. We had a HUGE guy as our security, so there was no chance that AP and Steve could even think about gatecrashing. Remind me to tell you that story some other time - warning - it will shock you, so you're best sitting down when reading it. Ava and Shashi, along with Neeraj/Vandana came and got intoxicated to the point where they were dirty dancing in front of everyone. It was so funny seeing all Sam's Asian friends trying to Bhangra....heheh....Kodak moments for sure. My song for the evening was "Beep" by the Pussycat Dolls - hehe.

When we finally made our way home, my cousins had arrived and Mum was serving them dinner. I was seeing my cousin's wife for the first time and his son - and I've gotta say - the kid is cute. Was too tired to say much so went and conked out, promising to talk to them in the morning.

The few days in between then and now have now been spent recovering - can't believe that one night of partying did this - must be getting old....and spending time with the cuz's. Actually gotta go now as we are gonna go hire a movie tonight and I don't trust their choice - lol - knowing my parent's they'll end up bringing some sappy romantic that's "suitable" hehehe.

- Silvara


PS - Please excuse the longwinded boring post - never been good at backtracking :P

Ok, please excuse that little fit there - Java and Database have threatened to make my life miserable within the next 48 hours if I don't get knuckle down and study. Which is precisely why I am writing this entry as evidence that I had the time and chose to procrastinate even more and thus resulted in my failure in the subjects. :(

Spent 2 hours today sorting through all my stuff that I sold on eBay, finally getting round to putting them into parcels and adding a variety of stamps on them. Didn't help that one of the shoes that I sold, I had attempted to use a heel aid in a desperate bid to make them fit, and failed, now wouldn't come unstuck from the shoe. I finally managed to rip it off and was horrified to see that the heel aid had come off but left the goddamn glue behind....!!! So after various tries and broken nails later, I was running around the house for half an hour trying to find Big Kev's Goo remover (Big Kev!!!) in a last minute bid to get it off.... Ahh God bless Big Kev - he saved the day :P

I've gotten quite used to hearing out of one ear for the moment but it's been frustrating for the rest of my family to say the least. They keep forgetting that I am temporarily deaf in one ear and so when I don't respond to what they say they get a little mad, and then remember and move to my other side. Going to the docs tomorrow to fix it all up...need to have clear hearing before my exams!!

Have also started shifting things out of my parent's room to Ragi's room for when my cousins come down from India. My 24-year-old cousin complete with 21-year-old wife and toddler have decided to move to Australia to "further his study". So it looks we will be getting some new neighbours....they're gonna be here for 4 years!! My parents have kindly offered for them (read: no choice) to stay with us until they get settled, which means in our 3-bedroom house we will have 8 people living here for a few months. They're also happening to arrive on the 23rd which is causing great tension between Mani and Mum, as it's Sam's 21st and she wants us to be here at home. No way is Mani going to miss Sam's 21st for people she has hardly ever met. Mani isn't backing down and neither is Mum, Mum thinks "it's rude" for family not to be there on on their first visit to Australia, and "what kind of impression will it leave - that we have 2 partying daughters that stay out late ??" God.... Dad "conveniently" will be away for a conference ("they're YOUR sister's kids") so I think Mum is just a little nervous about handling them alone if Mani and I are not there. Oh yes....extended family is a whole heap of fun.

Enough!! I will be rambling all night if I don't end it now...be back soon once exams are done....cannot wait!!!!

- Silvara

Things are getting back to normal - almost. I think that everyone is under orders "not to disturb" me at least until my exams are over. Then we will deal with it afterwards. I'm not looking forward to that. While I knew that this day would come, I want it to come and go by without me actually having to be there. But that's how I have always been - refusing to deal with reality when I make mistakes and hoping it all goes away. Rather immature I know but I dunno - I guess that's one reason why they treat me like they do. We'll see what happens.

Evs has been a darling throughout it all, he has stood by me and declared that "When you fall in love with someone, you take the good with the bad". Knowing that he is there for me, while not in person, is a great relief. Makes me feel guilty to have someone like him in my life when I clearly don't deserve it.

My hearing has been a little deranged over the last couple of days and finally went to the doctors yesterday to sort things out. The reason? A huge piece of wax stuck in my ear - near my eardrum...wasn't letting the sound waves through, not to mention the bloody uncomfortable feeling that I had something lodged there and couldn't get it out. I guess I need to start cleaning my ears out a little more often *blush*. Evs was like "I knew you never listened to me", while Ange pissed herself laughing and said I'm going to be the death of her one day. LOL...I'm glad I'm amusing then.

Been blog surfing again when I'm meant to be studying...Java just doesn't do it for me...and it's just reinforced to me the vast amount of weirdness there is out there on the Internet. From strange manga porn to the political and God-loving sites, it's quite interesting to see the different kinds of people out there. One thing tho....why would you put pictures you your newborn baby up there????? Found a few that I might to keep track of regularly...and no it ain't the manga porn :P

Some cool fashion blogs (BGlam blog) and a really well written blog about life in South India (The best days of my life). That one reads like an Anita Desai novel or something similar.

Ano let me know that the forum for the Monash Indian Club will be up soon - I registered but couldn't activate my account...hmm...a few things need to be fixed still I guess. I can still post under a guest account but will have to ask Ano for the link again to the site. Wonder if it will get as popular as the MUIC one??? I see no reason why not...I think most people from the MUIC forum will start to post there as well as the Monash ones, and having Ano as moderator will definetly make things interesting. I guess we're just going to get used to his hooch devoted posts :P

Mani and Sam have gone shopping today to find Sam the "perfect dress" for his upcoming 21st. I keep telling him he should go for the Bluffmaster theme, simce he is the spitting image of Abhishek Bachan there, and Mani and I could be the two girls hanging off his arms, hehehe, but I think he is going to opt for a more "casual" style. I think they will go order the cake and get catering as well. Should be fun - it's on the day of my last exam so it'll be a great way to celebrate afterwards. I wanted to go to the MUIC boat cruise but tickets were sold out before I had a chance to organize things. Besides - his 21st takes priority over a booze cruise anyways... :P


I should get back to studying now....Java awaits me with open arms and great glee to my rising despair.

- Silvara

That's it. I'm not going through it. I refuse to read another page of how to manage projects and how important resource allocation is, and absolutely will NOT do another Critical Path diagram. I have had enough. I needed a distraction and quickly. The forum is pretty dead at this time of night - nobody on msn that I feel like talking to (they're all going to bug me on Java and how the HELL am I supposed to know - I am just as clueless as they are!!) so the only option for me is to write in this beautiful winter wonderland of a blog. Hehe - in my dislikes I have said I hate winter, which is true - but it's not like I hate the concept of Winter but more the coldness, the wind and rain (FRIZZ ATTACK!!!) and layers upon layers of clothing.

Hmm...don't mind this entry - it'll be full of rambling and nonsense and when I have my brain back, I'll write something useful or something...

Was thinking, and as the way of my mind goes, there are a few things that I feel I am. I think I am quite the silly person, and here's a few reason's why:

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• because I like to mix polka dots and stripes
• because I feel I could always lose another 5 kilos
• because I can't express my feelings to those whom I love
• because I like to eat cinnamon donuts with nutella on top
• because seeing a small scrape on my brother's elbow makes me wince
• because I tend to dream big and am disappointed when reality gets in the way
• because I trust too blindly and continue to do so even when I shouldn't
• because I actually enjoy most hindi music
  
• because I more often than not believe what Cosmo/Cleo tells me
• because I still believe that I have the figure for skinny leg jeans not matter how big my thighs and butt are
• because I have never done a Sudoku puzzle or had a bubble cup
• because I didn't know that Marc Jacobs designed for Louis Vuitton until this year
  
• because I am intimidated by curry people - I feel they're always judging me
• 
  

That is all.

- Silvara

How many pickles did Peter Piper actually pick??

Urrgh...thinking of that makes my head hurt. My last entry was quite self-absorbed and rather boring, but thats what happens when I have too much time to think and analyse bout the mundane things in my life.

Was talking to R last night about exam time shannies - he was saying it was the core to him succeeding in yr 11/12 and then again in 2nd/3rd year uni - this, he said, was correlated directly to the fact he had a girlfriend to help him through the tough times.

I bet.

Let me digress - Went to Ange's house yesterday to have a Database study session, which was more of a gossip catch up session with a bit of Database study thrown in. Had MSN on, but put myself as busy, as so not to disturb the very funny story she was telling me about her bf's best friend drunkenly putting his hand somewhere it shouldn't have been and her dilemma on how to best approach it...heheh - perhaps explain that one another time, but I saw in the corner of my eye a message pop up. Thinking it was Evs or someone who hadn't made the connection that "Busy" for me actually means busy - no wait, not entirely true, I use that sometimes just so I don't have to talk to certain people. What?? Don't tell me you don't do it too...LOL

Anyways, it turned out to be R, who was having a hard time, excuse the pun, concentrating on his exam study and wondered if I could help him out. Uh huh...you heard it right. Thus his explanation of exam time shannies that worked wonders in the art of destressing. Sheesh. The guy was persistent let me tell you that. The only thing was, the last conversation we had this late at night, it must have been the lateness or whatever, but things were said to such a frank context, that thinking about it make me blush now. Hmm..he told me as well that our convo had left him a little...hot and bothered last time. Dammit...why do I get myself into these kind of situations??

I made some pretence of saying I had to go sleep, LOL, pretty dodgy excuse considering we're all exam studying, and managed to avoid the topic then. But what to do???? I think I have given him this impression now that I'm his net-shannies buddy or something, otherwise he usually doesn't bother with me...

I think the best option is perhaps doing an Ano - retirement from MSN...well maybe not the forum :P, until exams are over. We'll see how long that lasts :P

- Silvara

I was thinking about the first impression Evs had of me - that I was this cool chick who went out clubbing and had many boyfriends, and my reaction to it, which initially was "Whaaaaa-?" and then secretly kinda flattered, as I used to always have this desire to be That Girl. Not necessarily with the many boyfriends - but what that impression of being That Girl actually meant. The whole popular, go out kinda girl that everyone knew from a distance who she was and thought was hot. I don't know whether it was a self-esteem issue or what, but I've seen myself do a lot of things I wouldn't normally do in order to get "noticed" in a sense. At the time I laugh it off, but it's only when I'm alone and going through what has recently happened I come to the realisation that again, I've put myself up for something I never meant.

One very recent and kinda shamefaced incident was at the ISSS Strike night...hmmm...let's just say I did something for charity I'd never do normally. The upside of the whole thing was that I got lots of free drinks :P, people actually knew who I was after that night, AND I raised $200 for charity in 10 seconds...the downside of it was that I had 3 guys come up to me afterwards and say "Thank you"...EW!!!! and the people that I care about weren't very happy with me - least of all to say Evs.

I'm not sure what propelled me to do it - one reason was that I was put on the spot after jokingly saying to friends "I'll do it....NOT", and the other I don't know....it was almost like "Whatever..." - I had had only one drink by that stage too so there was no alcohol influence involved...much :P

I always admire people who have the confidence to not care what people think of them, to be happy with their own thing and I think it's actually those kind of qualities that gets a person noticed rather than cheap attempts...

I mean we all have our female insecurities (don't get me started on the size of my butt...*sob*), but I think it's time I learnt to put those things past me and just get over it. Oh god...this all sounds sooo high school I know, but what can I say - I've always been a late bloomer :P

- Silvara

I spoke to Evs last night - just on MSN, since he had no credit and I only had such a minimal amount, we'd get cut off before the "Hello's...how are you's?" had finished. While I miss him so much, sometime it feels we end up having the same conversation every night.

Him: "Hey babe, how was ur day?"
Me: "Good, studied. Ate chocolate. Nothing new"
Him: "That's good. I miss you"
Me: "I miss you too"

A few, ahem, X-rated lines soon follow, and then we sign off - him these days to watch the World Cup and/or play more fun filled hours of WOW, and me to slowly slide into despair as I realise after 6 hours of studying straight, I STILL don't understand stupid Java.

I know ok, we have been together for a while, but how is it possible to get stuck in rut over 725 km!!! Ok, him moving to Adelaide hasn't been the best time for both of us...but don't they say absence makes the heart grow fonder or something like that?? Sometimes, I almost feel guilty coz in a sense this year and a half until we will be together, I'm kinda considering it like a loooooong bachelorette year - full on single female freedom. This means going out with the girls, trying out new things, making new friends etc. I mean to certain limits of course.

Actually speaking of limits, things between R and me have pretty much gotten back to normal. I wasn't sure how I would be able to face him after what was said between us. To make a long story short - he was trying to convince me that I also had my needs and having a no-strings attached person to help me with them was not paramount to cheating on my BF in Adelaide. I found that concept a little hard to digest and it as funny how soon afterward on the forum a topic about cheating was posted up. I was so tempted to tell him to post his thoughts on the matter -but I doubt my words would have much affect on him. The thing is I only ever wanted a friendship from him, not even knowing him THAT well to even consider taking it further, but perhaps somehow I must have done or said something to make him think I was interested.

I'm not an overly flirty person, but I do like to to joke around with my male friends, and maybe I tend to say things that in another context would raise a few eyebrows - but they KNOW I'm attached so it doesn't mean anything...right????? Sigh... I don't know...the male mind to me is a mystery - so simple yet it tends to surprise me at the oddest times.

When someone unlocks this mystery let me know

- Silvara

Dum de dum. I'm bored. I know i should be studying right now, but the lure of randomly looking at hi5 pics and constantly checking up on the MUIC forum to see if another 3 words have been added to the "The Amazing Three Word Story Part II" has proven too tempting for me. Of course it hasn't got anything to do with my very short attention span.

My next exam is easy, but I hate giving it a definite outlook just in case it turns out to screw me over in the end, but I can safely say that I won't need a week to study for an open-book exam worth 30%. So the extra days should be used productively to study for my two exams afterwards which are on the 22nd and 23rd and WILL be hard. Damn Java.

As if.

My last two days have been spent waking up late, taking my time reading the paper, lazily going through my notes without any of it actually sinking through and then stuffing it all to watch a repeat episode of "Saat Phere" on Zee TV.

Which reminds me....I think it's on now!! Catchya :P


PS - I plan to get down to studying right after..... :P

I have come to the realisation that the world is indeed a very small place. One person's brother could be another person's best friend. And the Indian community, especially here in Melbourne although may seem non-threatening in its facade of placidness, is in reality a cesspool of gossip, scandal and an incredible amount of doctors, lawyers, engineers and the next Donald Trump in the making. So it's almost a very scary version of "6-degrees of Kevin Bacon" but more to the tune of "6 degrees of Rajinder Balakrishanaratnam....". Why a Punjabi guy would have a South- Indian/Lankan sounding- last name is beyond me :P

Take two weeks ago for example. My best friend from high school recently got engaged to her half-Indian/half-Italian boyfriend of nearly 5 years, and within mere hours, I was receiving calls to verify the event. Until the "formal" announcement could be made, my orders were to stay silent on the subject so I was getting the raw end of the deal when I had to say to some, "No - they're just good friends" and then "What??! Ohhh yeah....they ARE engaged come to think of it ". LOL

Hehe, don't get me wrong, I was having a fun time confusing the hell out of people whilst knowing the real deal. Isn't that always the case when you have a big juicy secret???

So, out of the original six of us from our Year 12 group, my best friend (let's call her Yoda), is the first to be set on the path of matrimonial bliss. It's actually a little unnerving tosee how far we have come. Has it been 5 (this year 6) years already since we graduated from high school?? Wait.. all of them have now graduated from uni as well...just me left. Hehehe... I think I'll end up a professional... professional student. :P

Back to exam study (in reality a cup of coffee and MSN)....


- Sig